Striped Toe Socks

I've been feeling down this week, sad, not sleeping well, just out of sorts. I was mean to J last night for no reason. So I feel the need to be grateful and stop focusing on the negative and wallowing.

In no particular order.

1~Knitting, not only does it give my hands something to do, it gives me an outlet to create and it has led me to so many wonderful people.

2~Said wonderful people.

3~J, no matter how crazy I get I know he is in this for the long haul and he loves me.

4~Chocolate.

5~My family, especially my brother.

6~Molly, it's hard to be sad when a little warm furry dog is licking you.


7~Books, funny TV shows, music. All things that remove your head from your own ass so you get a new perspective or at least a distraction.

The last few days have been really busy and fun. It is still amazing to me that I have met so many new friends through knitting.

Thursday I went out with Lisa and Emily. There are photos, but to be honest none of us are lovin' those pics so they won't be posted here. We did meet Tom the software salesman. If you see Tom out and about say hi, he is lonely, but don't stay, if you do you may here stories about his ex's daughter that you will wish you hadn't. The band did lots of Neil Diamond covers, being the lone Neil fan in my family it was a joy to discover Emily shares my love. This shouldn't surprise me since we've found more ways we are alike each time we talk.



Here's Tom.







Friday Emily and I did a little shopping after work. The Greene was insanely packed. I introduced her to the glories of Sephora, but neither of us bought anything. We did get some cute things at Ny&Co from the clearance section. There was much lust and drooling over the new Vera Bradleys, I hope Emily treats herself for her birthday.

Saturday was the David Church rummage sale. I had heard about it through an email from a knitting friend, there was rumored to be yarn there. Since Emily lives so close we went to the sale together. Neither of us bought yarn, but we did find some other treasures.

I love this old trunk and it was a bargain at $12!

There was lots of fabric. Since Chris is inspiring me to learn how to sew I picked up these two lovelies to get me started.



Emily surprised me with a little present. He was waiting for me in her cereal box.



Ok, I have actual work to do, so no more blogging. I didn't even cover the Celtic Fest, which was awesome.

We saw Batman last night and it was worth the wait. It was a bit of a pain to see, due to tickets selling out at many showings and a long line to enter the theater, even though we were there 45 min before show time. I remember the day when we would have been first in line for the first showing at 12:01 am, I guess that time has passed. It makes me a little sad, but I guess say I wasn't happy being asleep at three in the morning instead of on my way home from the theater. Heath Ledger was the perfect Joker and it made me sad again to see him, knowing his real life outcome. I was never a big fan, I really hadn't seen him in much, but I was still shocked to hear of his passing. The greater loss is of course to his family, but the audience will be missing him as well.

Christian Bale is delicious and I would gladly have his babies and wash his socks.

On to the knitting.

I felted the bag and disaster struck. It now has three or maybe it's four holes along the color joins. It isn't all of them which is confusing, I don't know where I went wrong. I'm deciding how exactly to hide the holes after the are stitched up, buttons maybe? I would take a picture, but frankly I feel ill when I look at it.

The lace hat is progressing pretty well. It was my goal to have the second repeat done by the end of the week, but that may include Sunday now, since I'm about six rounds short. As long as it's done by vacation though I'm good. (Aug. 8) I have no idea what I'll be working on Sunday night, maybe I'll go back to the Central Park Hoodie, then it may be done by Fall.

One more Batman nerd thing. Here is the list of Batman's mental illnesses.

The last few posts have been really whiny and I hate that, but I don't think I need to filter myself here. If I feel whiny and I need to get it out, y'all just get stuck reading it (or not).

So today will be some fun pictures of yarn and Molly. I realized I never posted my yarn haul from the Yarn Basket closing. And who doesn't like cute dog pictures?

So here we go.



Louet Gems, sport weight, this may become socks, if I ever learn to knit socks that is.



Arcaucania Patagonia Nature Cotton



Cascade Baby Alpaca Chunky



Universal Yarn Eden Silk





Awwwww, so darn cute!

Last week I received the invitation to my 10 year high school reunion. It has sent me into a tailspin of memories, self reflection and well, beating myself up.

Why haven't I finished school? Had a baby? Lost twenty pounds?

Do I even want to see any of these people?

I can tell myself they won't be judging and comparing, but thats a lie. I would be!

It's not like I was popular then and I'm not now. I've only recently added some great friends to my life.

It's not that I think my life is bad, I like my life, (mostly) so why do I feel like I fall short (and fat) of everyone else?

I felt the same way in HS. I wasn't in the "in" crowd. I wasn't even close. My family wasn't as wealthy as a lot of other people. I never knew the right thing to say. Well, that one hasn't changed. I hated school. Even to the few people I might want to see I wouldn't know what to say.

Why am I letting all those bad feelings still haunt me? Why do I bother with the comparisons? And why am I so darn hard on myself?

Have I really changed? Or am I still fifteen and feeling never good enough? Who the hell cares if some girls thighs are smaller than mine, so what? Does that make her better? HELL NO! So what if other people make more money or seem to have a "perfect life"?

Ok, I care, but I need to stop.