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Friday, January 22, 2010
On Monday I have my first trimester screening test. It involves an ultrasound and blood work. It will give us our chances of having a baby with Downs and will also give indications of other congenital problems. I'm nervous as hell. There is a relatively high false positive rate, 5% will get a positive and 5% of that group will actually have a child with a problem. We almost canceled it this week. Considering the increased risk of miscarriage with more invasive testing this will be as far as we go, beyond more ultrasounds. We wouldn't terminate for Downs, so we will just kind of be stuck with the results we get. I think it's my shaky confidence that it will tell us everything is fine that is keeping me going.
I spent so much time worrying that I would miscarry that I didn't have room to worry about anything else.
We are also debating finding out the sex. I really want to know. J was indifferent at first, but now thinks he doesn't want to find out. Considering my inability to keep my mouth shut about any kind of surprise, we have to come to some conclusion.