Striped Toe Socks
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
A Snapshot of Life
He wasn't playing.
I think it's all the Emily and Matt stuff that has me thinking about how relationships start and change and all that energy at the beginning, when you are testing the waters and always wondering what the other person is thinking. I've been a little hard on J because of it. I don't think you can ever recapture those early moments. Life just isn't like that. We can't go back to when we didn't know each other, when everything was still a mystery. We have years of love, loss, shared moments of time that have brought us to where we are today. I think too much power is placed on the early times. Those aren't the times that create a life, they are just a shaky start.
We don't play the Future Game anymore because we don't need to. We're sure of each other, we don't need to test the waters of what the other person wants in the coming years.
It's a trade off, but I'll take it.